Saturday, November 19, 2005
I'm back here after several months because I'm tired of LJ, and this journal has served me well enough in the past.
I feel nervous lately but I think its because of the holidays- every year, around the holiday time, i find myself getting nervous and depressed. Maybe it's a seasonal thing, but it's generally pretty hard to deal with. I find myself feeling lonely, or scared too often.
Posted at 12:37 pm by deformagraphy
Monday, December 27, 2004
Posted at 12:30 pm by deformagraphy
Tuesday, November 16, 2004
Right now I'm talking to Eric online. He seems to have the same outlook as me on relationships, that they are just ticking time bombs that will eventually hurt you, but you never know when. and when it does happen, itll kill you inside.
That's why i dont even allow myself to get attatched to people anymore. I learned my lesson: love= pain.
It's just easier to have a open relationship in which you can cheat on the other person, and they can cheat on you, and no one gets overly attatched and then when it finally ends (which it always does) you just find someone else to fuck and move on with your life.
moral of the story: dont get attatched, just date someone for ass, and you'll both end up happier in the end. And there' s always an end.
Posted at 11:54 am by deformagraphy
Sunday, November 07, 2004
full name: laine unnasch
age: 18
location: nj
height: 5'7
weight: 150ish
name of your best friend: heather clausson
name of your boyfriend: nada.
name of your girlfriend: nope.
name of your mom: diane
name of your dad: rich
name of your first love: brad lykins lol
name of your last love: brad i guess
current mood: ok
current clothes: jeans & anti bush tshirt
current shoes: my dcs :)
current music: dj skribble
current hair: long & curly & pretty. :)
current makeup: none. i dont need it. haha.
favorite color: all
favorite outfit: whatevers comfy
favorite song: lots.
favorite movie: hmm
ok, im bored.
Posted at 07:53 pm by deformagraphy
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
i just about melted a second ago. Originally I was typing out about waiting for Chris to call me back since we wanted to hang out tommrow, and as soon as I began typing about him, the phone rings and this cute tired voice says hello to me.
he's unlike any other man I've had feelings for. He's the type of guy who goes out every single night (accept tonight, hes actually sleeping tonight) to the bar and watches the game. He has a lot of friends and is always busy. He's going to be a policeman, too.
I'm very attracted to him.. I wonder if he feels the same for me. I've been writing in my LJ about him often.
I'm scared because this is the first time since Brad and I broke up that i've had strong feelings for someone. I'm scared I'm going to get hurt again. Well, I will get hurt again, it's just a matter of time. This is something that I've learned.
I also have been wanting to apologize to Brad. Its just hard because I have to admit that i was the wrong person i was the immature one, and the thought of saying that hurts my pride so I guess that is why I've been holding back from it.
I guess it's just that he is the first person in my life that i felt love for. Like full out, 'id-do-anything-for-you//you-bring-me-to-my-knees' love and I dont want to lose him. I acted stupid over the summer and I rubbed in his face that I was dating Andrew and I shouldnt have done that, but when I first started talking to him again.. I still had feelings and when I realized that he didnt have them back, or at least didnt seem to, I got mad and I didnt know how to react.
I'm sorry but I'm new at this. I'm not the type of person to just give my heart to anyone. My body, my attention, maybe, but my heart? Only one person has held that, and it was him.
My stomach hurts from thinking about this. I'm unsure as to why. My internet is going slow and its pissing me off, too. Rawr.
Posted at 09:19 pm by deformagraphy
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
sex quiz, cuz lj doesnt work
livejournal is pissing me off, so i am considering returning here. At least my post for tonite is.
Had sex? Been there, done that
Had oral sex? Mhm
Had anal sex? NO
Devoted a whole day to sex? Nope
Had noise complaints from neighbors during a sex session? No
Received open praise for sexual technique? Yes.
Written an erotic story? oh yessss
Fallen or lost balance during sex? no
Brought partner to climax using only hands? Yes.
Brought partner to climax using only mouth? Yes. But a combination of the two works so much better.
Had sex while totally dressed? No..
Had sex while standing up? No
Erotically licked feet or sucked toes? No ew
Had sex during a "monthly visit"? NO no never
Used whipped cream/soft chocolate erotically? Peanut butter is more fun. Takes longer to lick away.
Used ice erotically? Yes. he put it in my cooch and moved it around
Used hot melted wax erotically? Yes
Shaved your pubic hair? Yes.
Used a sex toy? Yes
Used a vibrator? Yes
Used an inanimate object (bottle, candle, hairbrush, etc.)? Yes
Used an inanimate object while having sex with a partner? Yes
Obtained money or a favor for sex? Yes
Paid or granted a favor for sex? nope
Given sex in sympathy? No
Had sex with a virgin? NO
Ever cheated on someone? Yup im a whore
Had sex with someone 10 years older/younger than you? 9 years older
Had sex with your landlord? No
Had sex with a teacher? No
Had sex with a boss? No.
Had sex with a relative? No.
Had sex with two members of the same family? No.
Had sex with twins? No.
Had homosexual sex? No.
Had sex with a pet? No
Had sex with a farm animal? No
Had sex with someone the same day that you met them? No
Had sex with someone whose name you didn't know? I never knew someones last name, once.
Had sex with someone you never spoke to/spoke different languages? Yes
Had more than 10 sexual partners? 5
Had more than 100 sexual partners? No.
Had two separate sexual partners within 24 hours? I had two in one weekend, once.
Had a menage-a-trois? Not yet
Had group sex (more than 3)? Not yet.
Participated in a swap/swinging club? No
Had two regular partners at the same time? Yes. Over the summer I became a skank.
Had sex in a public place? no
Had sex outdoors in broad daylight? Nope
Had sex on the roof of a building? No.
Had sex in a stationary car? Yup. :):):)
Had sex in a moving car? No
Are you a member of the mile high? No.
Had sex outdoors at night? No
Had two sexual partners at the same time unaware of each other? In the same weekend
Had sex at your office or other work area? Yes. LOL sadly i have
Met partner during work hours to have sex? No
Had sex in a public restroom? I masturbated in one.
Had sex on public transportation? No.
Had sex in a dark theatre? Masturbated someone, but no sex
Had sex in the water? Yup
Had sex in an elevator? No
Had sex in a cemetery? No. Surprisngly.
Had sex in a store dressing room? Nope
Used alcohol to lower resistance to sexual advances? Yes. =/
Allowed yourself to be felt up by a stranger? Eww recently
Looked at a nude magazine? Yes
Looked at an explicit magazine (actual sex acts)? Yes
Seen a live stripper? Yes
Seen a live sex show? No
Watched someone having sex without their knowledge? Nope
Showered with a partner? Yes :)
Flashed someone (breasts, genital, mooned)? Of course.
Streaked with a group of six or more? Never streaked.
Stripped for someone? Yes
Stripped for a group of 3 or more? no
Participated at a nude beach or nudist camp? No
Been the only nude person in a group of 3 or more? Yes.
Played strip poker (or a similar game involving nudity)? Yes
Showered while someone watched? Yes
Masturbated? Yes
Masturbated while someone watched? Yes
Masturbated for a group of three or more people? No
Masturbated covertly in public? Yes lol ;x
Had sex while you knew someone was watching? Yes
Been walked in on while having sex? Once
Walked in on someone having sex? No
Had phone sex? Yes
Watched a porno film with a sexual partner? No.
Been the photographer for a nude photo? Yes
Been photographed nude? Yes
Been photographed having sex? No.
Been videotaped having sex? No.
Watched a regular sexual partner having sex with someone else? No.
Role-played a sexual situation? Yes, doctor.
Taken part in transvestism? No.
Used a blindfold during sex? Yes
Used handcuffs during sex? Yes. *scoff* amateurs.
Inflicted pain during sex? Yes
Received pain during sex? Yes
Posted at 09:46 pm by deformagraphy
Saturday, October 02, 2004
Posted at 09:05 am by deformagraphy
Friday, September 24, 2004
changed journals; link is above; keeping this one for the bad old memories of it all.
Posted at 09:55 am by deformagraphy
Thursday, September 23, 2004
mood: content
music: "descending angel"- the misfits (its in my cd player)
I'm at college waiting for my math class to start. My health proffessor let me out early, so I have half an hour to waste on the internet in the library.
i made some more new friends this morning. Some guy named joe, another guy named jared, a girl who we call "Z" because i cant pronounce her name, and Anna. Nicole was also here this morning, so we talked for awhile. She was telling me how she saw Jack (my prom date) the other day. I didnt take a shower this morning so I feel icky. Also I would probably smell bad if it wasnt for the deoderant I'm wearing. woooo. stinkyness.
I must go. 4th grade multiplication and addition await me. Maybe Brad was right, if only I actually gave a shit about this stuff in high school I'd be in better classes. ;x
Posted at 09:15 am by deformagraphy
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
mood: sleepy
music: hoobastank- "running away"
The past few days have been a blur, I've been sort of sick so I forgot to update here.
Sunday I met up with my friend Chris, who lives in NYC. Heather and I picked him up and we all hung out for the day and went to the harvest fest. Hes cool, and when we were driving in the city i just kept staring at the buildings... they make me feel so small.
Unfortunitaly as the day went on I got more and more sick and by the time I was in the lincoln tunnel, I was about to throw up out the window. I got home and slept and I felt somewhat better the next day.
Yesterday was just another day at school. We had a big bio lab and did like 10000 experiements with biochemistry which was sort of boring.
Umm in funny news I was on the phone with someone last night, and I fell asleep while talking to them, and in my sleep I started talking about robots pushing cars. The only reason I woke up was because my friend was like, "WHATD YOU JUST SAY?" and that woke me up. I have been very tired lately. I slept 16 hours total today, and I'm still tired.
I have been looking into bondage and domination the past few days as well. Ryan sent me a good website on female domination, which is pretty interesting even just to read. I notice that in myself I have a instinct to be more controlling, more protective, and the more I think of it, I could probably turn those qualities into a whole role playing bondage thing if I wanted to. Sure as hell would make me happy or at least provide me with amusment and boost my self esteem a little bit.
Thats about it.
Posted at 09:38 pm by deformagraphy
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